I don’t even know if this is really a love confession. But it is a bit dumb.

I really want to be in a relationship with someone but there’s multiple things stopping me from doing so.

1. I’ve never been in a relationship with anyone and wouldn’t know what to really do(I think I’d be rather clueless even though I’m 19 almost 20 years old!)

2. I have pretty bad social anxiety and just general anxiety that I’m trying to work on but it makes it hard to meet new people when you’re overthinking all the time.

3. I got a LOT of emotional baggage and other personal issues that I don’t want to bring into a relationship.

4. I don’t love myself nor have high self confidence(but I’m working on it) so I don’t know how I can truly love someone or like someone when I’m not even like that with myself.

5. It’s hard to meet people during a pandemic.

But even with all those reasons(and probably more I’m just forgetting), I still want to be in a relationship with someone and experience love!

And I know, I know, I’m still young and shouldn’t be in a rush to get in a relationship with someone and have many years to do that. But, it’s bugging me how much I want to be in a relationship with someone when I haven’t ever been like this!

All throughout my early teens years I never wanted to really date anyone and knew I was young and had a lot of time still to do that.

But now, my thinking on a LOT of things has changed and maybe that’s why I’m this way now?

Or maybe I’m just extra lonely recently(like the last month or two). But even though I really want o be in a relationship with someone, I won’t be actually going through with it because of how much I need to work on and continue to work on before I enter a romanic relationship with anyone.