Missing my freedom

I’m so sorry I feel bad for this post but I miss my freedom !! I’m 18 with an infant & I love her so much with all my heart but I miss being able to do what I want when I want, I love being her mother but I don’t feel like being a mother is for me 😢😢 & I feel so bad saying that just I don’t know what to do because I don’t know what I would do without her but I miss being just me 😢😢