Let me start off by saying that I have severe body dysmorphia with a whole bunch of anxiety to go along with it. With my first child, I think I was too overwhelmed after birth (c section) to feel the feelings I did after this pregnancy.

I gained 40 pounds total this pregnancy. I started pretty underweight (I have/had one of those bodies that has trouble gaining weight) so the sight of myself postpartum was almost enough to send me into PPD.

I had really wanted to breastfeed for at least 3 months like I did with my first, but that bubble burst when my horrific body issues and anxiety forced me to give up 6 weeks in so I could take my medication 😓 it sucks. I felt defeated.

I’ve been dieting, working out and almost completely stopped snacking (I was a HUGE snacker before). I just wanted to share my progress so far because I’m proud of myself. I never used to work out and I ate like crap. Now that I’m treating my body better I can feel a crazy difference.

My last picture is still twenty pounds heavier than I was when I got pregnant. I can’t believe that, I can’t believe I was so skinny and didn’t even realize. Instead of getting back to that weight, I only want to lose 10 more pounds and keep that extra 10! I have a butt now 💪🏼

2 months PP ••• 3 months PP ••• 3.5 month PP

(Dirty mirror 😂)