That surprise announcement from you cousin about her surprise pregnancy was not as painful as you thought it would be. It probably felt easier because you are making so much of an effort lately to get things ready for your own pregnancy. Having your aunties in the same zoom meeting as this announcement from your cousin was a bit much. Especially when they started to make those expected comments about everybody having their own children their own babies, whose next. I am really proud of you for really trying to cheer others on while you wait your turn and that's exactly what we're just going to keep doing until we get there making all the changes we have so far is a big step and we are getting closer to our goal every day every mile we walk every meal we eat every thoughtful action we take to care for our body and we'll get there one day. Miracles happen everyday and mine is just around the corner. I haven't told many people about what I've been going through except just my husband knows my sister who I talk to and she understands cuz she struggled with the same issues briefly and my friend but I don't talk to her very much anymore cuz of the pandemic but that's okay we message. so a lot of my own support for myself is really coming from myself and that's okay I'm strong and I'm going to get through this one way or another I didn't come this far, just to come this far.