Im just being a brat and venting

Husband and I have been together since high school (15/16). We’ve been married for a few years. Just got a house, started with TTC in August.

I am already at the point of giving up.

It just feels like he doesn’t care or want to bother with the effort that goes in to creating a child.

As soon as he said he wanted to start trying I ordered prenatals, vitamins for him, opk kits, and most recently an internal sensor for bbt. I take the time to track my cycles, I’ve been doing my due diligence. I don’t think I’ve seen him take the vitamins since September or have seen the bottle in the house. Unless he’s keeping them at work (which I doubt because he works in a healthcare environment) they’re probably gone to the wind.

Back in October I went to a gynecologist for a: a general health exam cause It’s been some years and b: to talk over TTC, get the wheels turning for the future. Some blood tests later we find out I have some hormonal issues and I do my due diligence in taking my medications daily. I asked him to get in touch with his primary to schedule a visit. He keeps telling me he’s “gonna do it”. It’s January and still nothing.

I don’t even have the luxury of having sex outside my fertile window. So yes, I might get a few days but that’s it. Just fills his monthly minimum in a week and it’s... basic. Just the necessary amount of effort for TTC. And yes, I have tried to initiate. I have bought the lingerie. I’ve asked him what he wants. I’ve told him what I want. Then I just get pity sex for a few days and right back to the cycle.

I’ve decided to let it all go this month. No sensor. No OPKs. I’ll stick to the vitamins and obviously my other medication but I’m not clueing him in to my ovulation or anything. Am I being petty? Absolutely. Will this fix my issues? Probably not. But I’m hoping he gets the idea with a nice little wake up.