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I’m pregnant and I’m suicidal and want to cut myself or end my life I’m going crazy. I haven’t left the house for a month or two and my ex fiancé (father of the baby) left me and prob has another girl and he is friends with his ex on Facebook and etc. I’m just so hurt now. How can I be ok and it’s hard cuz it’s a weekday not the weekend since nothing is open or any of my deaf friends are there n it’s hard cuz of covid and everybody wearing a mask which I can’t fucking understand what the hell they are saying and I just wanna go out to numb myself. Shitt I even considered trying to have an abortion but it’s too late and I don’t like that for me to experience that. I’m just trying so hard to be happy n strong but I’m losing myself badly. I want to smoke and drink but I’m scared cuz I’m pregnant and I don’t want to harm it. Please help me out and please no mean comments. I cannot beat another rudeness.