So for those of you following me and then some. You know that I've been going through a tough time. Deal with abuse from my husband, and his family. Well I had the divorce papers and everything and I had the protection order in line. The day court came i just couldn't go through with it..I didn't want to make him lose his job. He still has two other kids to support along with our daughter. So I dropped the protection order.. Then he started discussing custody and legal separation. Even though he agreed to do every other weekend, ive thought about it, lost sleep over it. And I have decided to go home. I do not want to have to worry my daughters are being neglected or abused. This way with me going home I can stay home with them, know they're being fed and changed, put to bed at the right time and woken up with, given attention and loved.

I agreed to do counseling and come home But my conditions are me and my daughters will be in a separate room to sleep in for a while. There needs to be boundaries when it comes to touching, kissing, etc. I will not allow any of the children to be treated badly. My husband already know ill call the cops on him the second I feel threatened or my babies are threatened.

I know this maybe confusing to people but this is the right thing to do for me and my babies. I can not survive without them and not knowing if they will be safe. They are my life and until I can secure their safety of being away from me. I'll have to fake it until I make it.