Caught my partner wanking to porn

Cried and explained it hurts me, yet again ! considering me calls me fat and ugly I’m hardly confident. We’ve been together 8 years . I’m a size 8 UK but could be more toned for sure

Am I being ridiculous ? he just laughs and says it’s different for men,

I explained it hurts me as he’s lusting an obvious getting off over another woman when I’m like there.. what’s wrong with me ? Why would you rather do that..

But apparently it’s fine.

He admitted he wouldn’t even want me using a vibrator and he’d prob get mad if he caught me let alone watching something 🥴 so why does he then try to justify it being ok for him too?

So yeah I know I’m going to get those ones that think it’s fine and watch it with their partner are going to come with their neg comments so please don’t, just want responses from those who get it

Thanks