Should I leave or stay because he says I should?

I’ve been dating my second boyfriend for a 1 year and 3 months. No kids for either of us I’m 22 he is 23. 2 Months before we dated I’d go to his place like once a month to hang out but it was really sex, he took my v card and he said he wanted to date me. It’s the same “procedure”even now officially dating though we meet maybe every 2 or 3 months because of the pandemic.

I’m a homebody going out only to work really and finishing my senior year of college. He isn’t a homebody and posts on Snapchat with friends pre pandemic at late hours. Also I’d see his relatives came to visit him out eating with masks. He’d traveled recently on plane, unbeknownst to me till he arrived, and would be out eating in restaurants during this pandemic. I think its important to still live your life during pandemic safely. I can’t help but feel like why can’t he do this stuff with me?

He always told me he would take me out or simply cook me food at his place when we meet up for a home date. It’s never happened, we always meet to basically have sex and light chatter. Three months dating in he told me after sex that he was married but separated and I was in complete shock. What? Here I am 21 sleeping with, helping pay, and he tells me this? I was gonna break up then and there but was too in shock and wanted to just run away. I was already helping him and I felt I was in too deep and thinking about him, school, work, life made me shut down and not talk. This is when I think my feelings died of seeing a long lasting relationship. But I stupidly stay because he tells me not to worry.

He doesn’t like kissing on lips either and denied me when I tried to change our meet ups from me giving him head then sex and I leave. I asked him twice if we could kiss/ make out at our next meet up and he agreed. When time came to kiss/ make out I sat close to him, told him I was gonna kiss him before we have sex and tried to wrap my arms around his neck. He turned his face away and said no And I was hurt and said Im not sick I got COVID tested from work twice and tried again. He said no again and I sat back far away from him. I thought I was gonna cry because he denied me after saying he would.

I wanted to break up then and there also because I can’t see the relationship going if he only gets what he wants and lied to me. He let me kiss his neck during sex later on but I don’t even do that cause it’s not the same. I don’t even receive head anymore though he gave me when we weren’t dating and I don’t smell or anything weird down there! He knows that I like it! I think he is happy with vaginal sex and thinks that is enough for me and head for him. Since then I told him that because this is all we do that I’m basically a booty call and we should not be dating. He says that I should stay, he has to finish his payments then it can be about me and him. These payments started at the beginning of the relationship and I am helping him because he asked me. I didn’t know it would take this long, I work part time and told him I don’t wanna be paying all his payments for him. Yet here I still am. I feel like I messed up and I hate to regret my choices... I’ve tried not to think about this as I want to focus on achieving graduating first in my family. School added into in a pandemic and life problems already stress me out.

He just recently asked me in late December 2020 when am I gonna let him take me out. I said he can try next year 2021 but feel like I shouldn’t allow him to but idk if he is serious or even if I wanna stay.

Sigh, I just want to know what should I do because I’m young and dumb and can’t talk to anyone else please....

Update August 23: I ghosted him in April after Easter Day before his birthday, after I found out he was texting a hot bbw Snapchat friend of mine. She showed her long block list on her story of creeps and I found his name, texted her so she sent me receipts. For some reason that got me and we tag teamed. She added him back on Snapchat and he hit her up immediately asking for pictures and he sent her some of him. I immediately texted him Happy Easter during their exchange, to which he opened at almost midnight, wow. He could text her immediately but not me,…..ok. Promptly after she sent me more screenshots and blocked him again telling me to leave him I ghosted him deleted him everywhere and went to Church crying in my mask with relief. He looked up my number and gave it to his friend to try to contact me. Told him we are done but he still wanted me to help. I said hell no! I can’t believe my dumb self for going thru this honestly. You guys were right but I couldn’t listen until I saw something for myself. No more stupid boys! And I graduated stress free!