Glad but sad

I'm no longer with my bf so we're not ttc anymore but we did end up going protectionless and thought I might be pregnant. I just took a test 4 days before my expected period and it was negative. I can't help but feel disappointed and upset. I want another baby so badly but I'm glad it's not with him. I'm glad its not under these circumstances but ffs I'm so sad seeing another negative test. I really thought I would've had another baby by now. I hope this feeling goes away soon, I feel so empty.