I hardly ever cum and when i do, i know I’m a squirter but when I cum it’s like pee.. I do I have to force it out unlike pee. And I always always pee before I start. So... am I peeing? Because what comes out smells a but like pee even looks a bit yellowish in colour slightly. When it dries on a white sheet it stains yellow.

I basically don’t orgasm anymore because I’m too scared I’m peeing. Idk what the hell to do. I now also have vaginismus 😔 even if I ever get aroused and want to have sex I avoid it due to these issues.