Shopping Addiction * please no judgment

I’m learning how to clearance shop and use coupons. People will post deals and I spent time researching and going to stores. It started out as a hobby but I feel like it’s doing some damage. I feel like when I can’t find / get something I wanted I feel all upset and anxious. I can’t wait to go to the store the next day to look but also I have responsibilities I can’t blow off just to get random crap. Sometimes it’s actual useful things I get. Sometimes it’s not. I don’t do this every day, but I guess I realize it gets bad because of how I feel just because I can’t go to a stupid store. It’s ridiculous honestly. I see all these people with their finds all stacked nicely and I wish I were them and experiencing excitement.

I’m not sure why I do this to myself. I guess the first step to overcoming is admitting you have a problem 😅😂 So I don’t think I’m too far down in the rabbit hole of it all, but I need to stop myself now before it gets worse