Trust issues

I was cheated on in my last relationship.

He did so over Snapchat.

He was in the Army so on the weekends they’d go drinking in the city where he would hook up with girls there.

He secretly flew home to have sex with another girl.

He told girls he loved them.

He had things with girls for months on end, probably our entire relationship.

Needless to say, I have trust issues. I think everyone is lying to me and it’s been over a year since I got out of that relationship.

Anyway, I’m seeing a guy now and it’s a challenge to make sure I don’t let these insecurities and trust issues project on to the thing we have going on, but I think I’m doing a pretty good job. And I do trust him, but it’s hard to not convince myself I shouldn’t. And it’s hard not to read into everything. He has never been shy to be open and honest with me and we communicate pretty well without any toxicity.

Anyways, a couple days ago he told me he would be staying in another city close by with a family friend of his to drink, who I have met. He and his Dad are really close with this guy and his family, and this guy and his partner played a hand in raising him by the sounds. 2 hours ago this was our conversation.

Him: ‘I’m heading away tomorrow darl’

Me: ‘to ____?’

Him: ‘yeah darl’

Me: ‘how long for?’

Him: ‘I dunno’ (he is like me and just goes without asking questions)

Me: ‘oks’

*random snaps back and forth me probably looking visibly stressed and so he asked me if I’m okay which I replied saying for the most part.

But he hasn’t opened my message, it’s late and he was getting ready by the looks from his snaps, though I never asked what for. Soooo now my anxiety is sky high waiting for a response and it’s been an hour or two. I really am an anxious person already and I have these trust issues so I have a hard time knowing when it’s a me thing, what’s normal and what’s not.