Is this normal?

I’m an 18 year old virgin who’s never been around boys, sometimes i watch porn , but i find myself gravitating towards lesbian porn or just a woman having solo sex anything that doesn’t have a penis in it. I think it’s kinda disgusting and weird , let alone hot! I’ve always appreciated female form more than men’s form .

I would chose men over women in a romantic relationship, but i realllyyyy want to try having sex with a woman. I feel like stuff like rape and stuff has made me skeptical about going to bed with a man.

And also when i masturbate i only use my fingers to stimulate my clit , i have never tried any kind if penetration.

Is this how everyone feels? Or am i who thinks lesbian sex is probably to hottest form of sex?