Hi mommas! I'm really needing someone to vent to.

I graduated high school last year, with my son who's going to be 3 in April. 😁

It was very very hard, as I did it with little to no help. But lately I've been feeling so depressed..

I've only had 1 real job and that was 2 summers ago working at a hotel as a housekeeper. I did enjoy finally having a real job but it didn't last long, the girls I worked with were always talking about drugs, one girl passed out in my room while i was vacuuming and she had needle marks all over her arms so I ended up quitting... I haven't had a job since and continued to be a stay at home mom. But lately I've been feeling so bad about myself. I feel stupid for only having 1 real job and not even for that long and having a son.. I feel so so horrible about myself.

I kinda wanna go to college, I kinda want to get a job, or maybe I wanna do something from at home. I feel so lost.

I don't even feel like im good at anything besides being a mom. I absolutely love to stay home with him and teach him things, but at the same time I keep beating my own self up. I just want to be good at something like everyone else is. I feel like I should have more knowledge about having jobs or everything like that.. the only thing I feel good about is graduating high school and I got my permit last year to get my license. Plus I have super bad anxiety and that alone makes me nervous to do anything...

But anyone have any tips on something I could try to do...? I've been so upset and sorry this is a long post! 😪

Anything helps, thank you❤

(I am 20)