Can I take a second and stop lying to myself!!

Miracle

No I am not okay, I don't feel good. Tbh I don't know what I feel. Depression and anxiety starting to make me numb I don't feel any, but deep down inside I'm angry, sad, hurt, mad, frustrated and confused. I am mentally tired and I just want to sleep so I don't feel anything or think. I just want to isolate myself from the world and all people. I just wish I had it all figured out, my struggle with mental health is getting worse everyday. So many people think it's new but I've been battling with mental health all my life I just thought it was normal.