I guess this is where we all come and vent but i just feel like I'm falling apart. Im full time at college with 25 hours at work, one of my days has to go to my friend or else im "fake" and another to my boyfriend. Eveyday is taken up, its hard to breathe. I want to meet my father but apparently theres another family. And i get quesrioned why i want to meet him if he doesnt want to meet me... like idk i want to and its my real father. My dream is to move to New York City but my boyfriend 'cant' move or believes we can't be a thing if I go there. He wants to settle down. BUT im only 19. Im not gonna stop my dreams and life just to make a boy happy because he says he loves me. Then i stay up every night till 1am to 3am doing homework and I got a freaking 66 on my exam today.

SO I GOT DUNKIN DONUTS AND CRIED. I PULLED OVER IN AN EMPTY PARKING LOT AND JUST CRIED. Im sorry i dont know what i want to do with my life yet. I didnt know i was supposed to be now, I'm trying to figure it out. But im just 19. And i probably wont remember this day in years to come but today feels like my world is crashing down. ✌

If i go to work and some shit happens, Im this 🤏close to breaking everyones neck. Plus im on my period. So fml.