I have my US yesterday and measured a little smaller than I thought we were, only by a few days. However, we saw the little flickering heart and I will always remember that. Despite this, I am still in complete disbelief and shock that I’m pregnant. Like complete disbelief. And I feel awful - throwing up, constantly nauseous, headaches, discharge, incredibly tender (and huge) breasts and nipples, and bloated AF. Regardless of these very obvious pregnancy symptoms, and the fact that I have seen our peanut, I just can’t believe it! Like I’m so blessed and God has given us this amazing peanut and chance to raise a child that we’ve been praying for and waiting for for 10 years and now it’s here. I’m terrified something is going to happen and it’s going to leave us like our first baby did.

Whew. It feels good to get that off my chest.