My best friend of over 10 years has been an absolute rock throughout all of this, (been trying for our 3rd for last couple years now) and last week I was pretty much at rock bottom, chatting with her on facetime about how sick I am of negative tests and I don't understand what's wrong when I've already had 2 successful pregnancies but since the last I've had 3 back to back miscarriages and a chemical. She gave me some comfort and said she'd always got my back whatever I decide etc. Today she calls me full of panic but tinted with excitement, she's pregnant with her 3rd. After a routine pregnancy test before an xray it came up positive so she'd just come out of the scan and is 14 weeks. I honestly did my best to sound happy and excited for her (I genuinely am) but I'm also crushed inside. Shes just announced on fb and I feel like a total awful person right now for not even wanting to look at the pics right now because I'm so heart broken. We were on the same pill, I stopped 3 years ago and only had sad endings since, she stops it and within the first month she gets pregnant and everything's just fine no problems. Why can't I have that what's wrong with me?!?! Please tell me I'm not the only one finding it impossible to try and keep smiling when everyone around you seems to get pregnant at a click of the fingers! 😭😭😭