Advice/ opinions

Possible trigger warning.

So I have been getting slight positives for the past three days. I am now 12 dpo and I got one that

you can actually tell it’s there without turning it the right way, squinting, etc. and now I’m going to make an appointment to “discuss my options” because I have a 1 year old and I’m not sure if I could handle having 2. I just need advice from someone or someone with a certain experience because I just don’t know what to do. One minuet I’m set bd confident in my choice, the next I’m not so sure. I don’t really want to go to anyone because I’m already so vulnerable and do t want judgement.