Help, Coming to terms with c section

Long story short, I’m currently 36 weeks and my baby is already 8 lbs 2 oz. I’ve been told if he gets any bigger we’re looking at a c section, however they refuse to induce me until I’m 38 weeks (in which case he will most likely be 10 lbs). So I am basically being forced into a c section at this point and I’m so angry. C sections terrify me to my very core. I am having a really hard time coming to terms with it and need some advice. If you had a c section scheduled how did you come to terms with it and get into a okay head space before hand? I’m already struggling with the idea and am worried of postpartum depression and other things.