Getting ready for cycle 12! (Vent )

I just need positive vibes right about now ! I feel happy that I’ll be able to try again this month but that also means a new month for getting my hopes up and possibly being let down with another BFN😫 when I first started my journey I was so excited and hopeful! Now almost a year in it’s just not fun anymore and I’m so sad with each month passing and friends/ family announcing their pregnancies! And I have a stark white test😔 I just feel left behind or undeserving of a baby! Doesn’t help my BF is pregnant 2 months after trying and texting me all her symptoms and cravings.. i understand she’s excited.. but she also knows my struggles..insensitive? I think so, but I don’t think it’s intentional...anyways... Im just wondering if anyone else feels like this? How do you guys still remain positive ? I’m so thankful this app exist because I don’t have anyone to talk to and I’m definitely not getting back on any other social media anytime soon.