Hate being a mom

Sometimes I just hate being a mom. I love my baby boy, but there are moments where I feel like I don’t and just hate having to take care of him (especially because I’m the only one doing that). I even shout at him sometimes ( I do feel terrible about it, and I say sorry to him afterwards. Yes I’m trying not to shout) I know it’s terrible but I feel like this is my end and I’m on the edge and I can’t take it anymore. if you want to mom shame go somewhere else. Thanks for letting me vent 😭😭😭😭