How do you heal from it?

I have 3 beautiful healthy boys.

Im so greatful and blessed.

But, this grief is beyond me!

I went for an ultrasound on Thursday, due to a uti infection. 9+6. There was no heartbeat. My perfect baby had passed. Yesterday i spend the day in hospital having meds to help pass they baby. The worst 8 hours of my life.

After the second course of tablets everything happened so quickly. I passed my tiny baby, who was as formed as could be at that stage. All i remember is those little legs and little bum.

I cant unsee it and i cant stop feeling as if it was my fault!

I want to try again.. but how soon after?

When is it safe? Will it ever be safe?

Again im blessed for my boys.

Ive never experienced a miscarriage before..

Im struggling. I feel angry and empty.

My heart breaks for anyone going through it or gone through it at whatever stage of pregnancy.

That was still our baby.

Our babies too precious for earth. I just want the pain to go away.

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