July 2015 I met the father of my children (3&4.5) who proposed to me on our 3rd date ..

January 2016 there’s a fight about $$ ( he was charging me rent..) and he kicks me out pregnant then begs me back I forgave him for the sake of the baby..

July 2016 1st baby is born I was suddenly alone at home he started working long hours (8pm)

November 2016 I resumed work from home while raising the baby he was gone the same ..weekends he’d bring his friends/family over they’d drink and play pool while I’d try to put the baby to bed

January 2017 my parents move in to my rescue because soon I’d have to go back to work in person and I didn’t feel comfortable with the daycare system

April 2017 I’m back to work full time since the fight I didn’t giving him anymore rent but paid for all food/household items did the cleaning/cooking/childcare

June 2017 I find out I was pregnant again

October 2017 I was laid off (after 11 years of service)

February 2018 2nd baby arrives:)

September 2018 we find our forever home my names supposed to be in the deed he goes to the closing alone saying that he’ll change it later (didn’t happen)

December 2018 I find pink chapstick in his pocket he flips out saying was his (he’s never prior/post used chapstick )

January 2019 we move to the new house

April 2019 we apply for our marriage license some days later he leaves home in a white shirt comes back in a blue one I question him he loses it breaks off the engagement!

I stay because he said he’d fight me to the grave for custody ....then comes covid and now I accidentally back into his car he’s terrorizing me telling me I need to pay him 40k .. I have no family/friends here originally from Europe and he won’t let me take the girls there (even for vacation.). He’s taken my car keys and threatened to cut my cc

Now He won’t talk to me even via txt saying he’s blocked me.. I refuse to be scared but I see it very dark what would you do? I can’t open court proceedings without a place to move into with the girls and he won’t let me take them ..I’m desperate:(

Sorry for the long post!