I’m feeling really under supported and over expended. I have two little boys and it is just me. We moved to a new area in august and it is 45 min-1hr away from people that could help. It was a quick move with not much choice in where. I feel like since we moved here it has really highlighted how little support I have. I have a good friend who I was so close with, or I thought, but I am feeling like our friendship has dwindled with my Inability to help her as much and me finally trying to respect my own needs. It seems like the convenience of it was more than anything. And then my family was definitely supportive out of convenience as they have come to see us a handful of times and expect us to come there (me, as a single mom, with two young kids, and a full time job, to make the trip to them). I’m just dealing with feeling unwanted unless I can serve others, on top of exhausted and just at my end. Some days I scare myself with how close to the edge I get, I don’t know how much longer I can do this. I can’t even get basic healthcare done for myself and the offer is for me to uproot my kids take them an hour away and then drive an hour back to the apt. 4 hours of driving. To get one apt done. If I want help. I’m sitting here crying because I have no one, no help, no one understands it, I feel like a whiney selfish B if I express what I’m going through. And wonder if maybe my inability to respect my own boundaries leads me to resent/be frustrated with those who do? I don’t know.