my husband & i have been together for a little over a year now but got married back in july. we currently have a 3 week old baby as well.

about 2 weeks ago i found a list of porn/ women on his tik tok “twerking” hidden in his messages. note, i know a lot of women are okay with their partners watching porn & have different preferences and that’s okay, however i am not. i feel so hurt & undesirable. i’ve been lied to for one year & just having a baby i already feel awful about my body anyways. i am comparing myself to all these women that i have found on his phone.

he keeps getting getting upset at me because i can’t forgive him easily. any advice or comments would be helpful, but please no negative ones. i just really am not sure what to do or where to go from here. i feel as if my sex life for the past year has been a complete lie.

edit- i have spoken to him and he apologized, etc. says “i’m good enough” just what you’d expect any husband/bf to say but i’m still having a hard time wrapping my head around why & feelings of being undesirable. & i will add that we have had sex nearly everyday before i got pregnant & even when i was pregnant whenever he wanted it, he got it. i just think that’s why i struggle so much because i would literally give it up whenever...