Feelings

Hi Ladies,

I recently found out I was expecting my second. I am of course happy. But this time around I find myself more calm not really overjoyed. Thankful to God definitely but it's not that OMG feeling I had with my first. I have been going through a lot lately....

Chemical in the beginning of November, HSG the end of November, I caught Covid and recovered, my dad is in the hospital currently for over a month with covid and it's effects.

I know this is a happy time but I feel despite it all I should feel happier. I know I've wanted this for so long to grow my family but with everything going on its hard to really indulge. Am I wrong?