Let me start off by saying I entered this “relationship” when I was 17 and he was 29.

I had twins at 18, a daughter at 19 and gave birth to another girl when I was 21.

After my twins were born I flew to New Jersey to help the father of my kids with his immigration bullshit, came to find out he was still married and recently just got divorced, he didn’t sign the papers, she had the courts dismiss her marriage without him.

I’m from Texas, I have nobody here in New Jersey except a few friends, my kids, their dad and I all live with his family.

Our relationship has always been toxic in ways that degraded and hurt me.

Verbal abuse, physical abuse and emotional manipulation.

I believe 2 weeks ago I let it be known that I don’t want anything to do with him, we’re just co-parenting and nothing more.

Would it be wrong of me to just move on and see other people while living with his family? Me leaving isn’t an option at the moment, I was laid off of work due to COVID and due to start working here in 1-2 weeks.

I’m not his property, I’m an adult, I can make my own decisions, why do I feel bad for just doing whatever would make me happy??