Has anyone ever experienced sexual frustration before? As a virgin?

I’m 18 and was dating this guy and he asked to have sex but I wasn’t ready. I didn’t started to feel ready until a few months later, but we broke up the month before I felt truly confident about losing my virginity. I think I’ve been experiencing sexual frustration ever since. I’ve always wanted to lose it to a guy I was in a good and healthy relationship with so I know I could trust them to be gentle with me. I think I was kind of mad at myself because things ended before I finally was ready, and it took a lot of strength for me to be ready. It also took me a long time to find a trustworthy guy too. However, he was a dick. So I guess one part of me is thankful I didn’t lose it to that loser, but the other part wants me to get it over with and experience this amazing thing, but my morals want me to wait again until I find the right person. I’ve been sorta seeing this new guy but we’re not official and probably won’t be for awhile, but I’m so damn horny like 75% of the time I am touch starved. I don’t wanna rush into things with him just to “get it over with” but I can tell it’s impacting my mood so badly. Also my period is over a month late (most likely Bc i had issues with my BC and had to stop taking it) but it’s driving me crazy😭 another weird thing too is that I cant really get that horny when I’m alone in my bedroom by replaying scenarios in my head, but whenever I’m in public or with friends my head unintentionally replays them and I have to stop myself like why is my mind torturing me 😭😭😭