Anyone else feel like they’re going crazy?

I’m 36w and a couple days, and I feel like time is going SO slow. It’s unbearable. I already have a hard time this time of year, I get very sad and lonely for no reason. Lately I feel like it’s been extra hard. I just want to scream and cry all the time. I had a dream the other night that my boyfriend was cheating on me with his ex, and ever since I just want to cry any time I think about him or he says anything to me. He went to bed extra extra early last night so I went and slept on the couch bc I was upset and just wanted to spend time with him. Not that it’s particularly his fault, he works hard, but I spent the whole night waking up every couple hours absolutely bawling. I ended up going back in our room at 4am bc I was miserable being by myself. And I can’t stop worrying about having my baby. I’m tired of being pregnant, I want my son here already, but at the same time I am terrified. What if I don’t love him like I should? What if I’m not a good mom? What if I can’t take care of him? My boyfriend is so excited for our son to be here and doesn’t have any worries at all which makes me feel worse that I do. I know most of this is just my hormones going crazy but I am SO over it!