That heartbreak never gets easier...

Brittany

Sometimes I wish keeping the baby in there and healthy was as easy as crossing your legs and lying completely still. My hcg levels were 11 on Friday and 3 today. My progesterone tanked well below where it needs to be as well. They still want to run tests on Wednesday and do an ultrasound, but I already feel empty. Naturally we haven't told anyone we even got that positive test so it's tough to be normal in front of our family. They have no idea. At least they won't have to feel the pain because they'll never know. I'm crushed. Ya know. We stopped trying and it happened. Then this happens. I'll never understand why. I just want to stay curled up in this ball on my bed until it's over.