Is this reall real 😭🤞🏽🙏🏼

I been trying for a good three years for a baby but always negative tests back to back . Last night I decided to test because my cycle suppose had started yesterday but it haven’t & my Fiancé kept saying u pregnant all last week in I did a test I think 9/10 dpo in came back negative so I gave my hopes up . I can’t stop crying I’m worry what’s if this test playing with me. What should I do now I don’t want to tell him just yet not until I know it’s real should I wait to make a doctors appointment when my cycle is completed late or what . I’m just freaking out rn

P.s one test I took last night in the other this morning