*TW self harm*

Yesterday I was in an awful mood mentally and was so close to cutting again. I don’t even know one main reason why I was upset, it was a lot of small little things. I was on the verge of tears all day and cried like 3 times. But I felt like giving in so badly and that I felt I deserved pain. Instead I just snapped a hair tie against my arm and it stung a little bit but I didn’t cut. I felt like it would’ve been easier just to cut but I didn’t. Today I woke up and the rashes from the hair tie were gone. I still feel depressed deep down inside but weirdly not as upset to cut. I think it’s truly bizarre how extreme my urges were yesterday and today it’s like I’m acting like that never happened. I truly don’t know why I feel like this. I’m not prescribed on anything and never been diagnosed but I know I have depression and anxiety. Anyone else ever feel like this?