I feel really broken And sad

year ago i married to a guy who i believed is my soulmate..moved to Germany for him and now one year later find myself stuck here living with a guy who everyday reminds me what a awful person i am and not caring at all..all this year i was busy by learning german so didn’t work and no savings not enough money by myself...not having friends here and my parents told me its better just stay in Germany even if i wanna separate...i feel stuck without any place

I just wanna leave him but don’t have a place even for a week to go there

Keep thinking about killing myself and crying..