I dont know what to do

Nicole 💕 • Jesus is Lord !🙏🏽

Me and my husband had got work through a temp service the other one we usually go to was shut down due to corona , and we also had one other one but they wasnt sending us out for work , So we found a new one this one is hard hat , Boots attire , etc 8hrs .. well lets just say 9hrs and pay 9$ an hour .. okay so we get there its our first day , (i was giving it a try , remind you im on ssi , but not just that i have heart problems , chest pains & leg aches ... ) anyways we was pushing the broom , throughout the whole house , I wanted to make a good impression , i wanted to do good at my job so id take a little tiny break maybe a few seconds atleast & then go back to work . I think how i was pushing the broom caused neck ache, chest pain etc .. i stopped occasionally , and kept up the fight but i ended early & now i feel like a failure to my husband to my marriage yes i tried but i didnt try hard enough :( , I clocked out early , And not knowing that my husband would also have to clock out as well because there was only one van and we were far out , i doubt they wouldve made another trip , So between the both of us we made 40+ bucks , Thats not nearly enough money , I just got my deposit , but heres the thing i had to spend 313$ on hotel for a week for us , cause he paid for the first week & then i had to pay bills my phone bill, i had to pay someone back , i had a negative in my account they took that out of my ssi, Which lowered me But not as much as the hotel did & not to mention i had to give my husband 20$ for weed ... my husband said he was proud of me for trying to work && then he throws in my face that he spent nothing of the money we had && we might have to go back to living on the streets again..... (hes lying btw) hes spent money for weed , He spent money on the hotel , he spent money on us getting showers at flying j etc . Hes just blaming me for everything oh and get this , i spent 130 on his child support on 1/4/2020 . He says hes not blaming me , I have two options go back to work try to take it easy help us keep living at the hotel for a bit or i can not work and we loose everything we end up back on the streets ..:(