I was raised on organic food and told that if it’s not organic it’s poison. The grass isn’t always greener on the other side I know but you always get curious. When I left my mom house I tried the” poison” It wasn’t bad. Organic foods pricy very pricy. My family says I’m fat now. I want to lose weight. At one point I would force myself to throw up. Sometimes when im in the bathroom I get the urge to throw up but truth is I have nothing to throw up. Over the years I’ve lost my appetite there are days where I eat one a day. My bf says “ you are fine the way you are” but I don’t feel fine I feel huge. I want to lose weight but how do you find the drive to lose weight.