Wanted to share something thats been really heavy in my heart.

Background story, when i married my husband he had 1 boy and 2 girls.

I didn’t have any kids at all.

Well growing up i always wanted a boy and a girl. A boy first and then a girl. Just 2. We had our first son 2017. And i was happy it was a boy like i wanted. Then this year we had our second baby, another boy. And part of me was heart broken because i really wanted a girl. And this threw me off. Now if i wanted to have a girl id have to have another child, and my husband has said that he’s done, he doesn’t want any more since he has 5 already.

It breaks my heart just thinking that i will never have my baby girl.

Even if we were to get pregnant again im scared it will be another boy.

So i brought up adoption to him, we can adopt a little girl,(I’ve always wanted to adopt as well).

He doesn’t want to adopt. 🥺😔

I see gender reveals of people having a girl and they have a boy already and it makes me so jealous of them. It’s gotten to the point where I question why?? Why didn’t God give me a little girl??

It also makes me see my husband as selfish for not wanting to have another shot at having a girl. Why cant he give me a little girl of my own?

I get so lost in my thoughts i get depressed about it. 😔

I think its so upsetting to me because we spoke about this before marriage and he had agreed to have more than 2 kids and now he changed his mind.