I have never orgasmed just fingering myself (meaning inside the vagina/gspot— I can orgasm on clit) or even during sex.. so I’m a little shook

Every time I have sex with my current partner I feel the need to pee and I try to “release” it but it just doesn’t come out.. So I had to try it myself- I used a dildo and vibrator? Nothing. Then I tried my fingers with the “come here” method to hit the g spot.. I did that for like less than 5 mins, felt the need to pee but just wouldn’t happen. But when I felt it coming again, I stopped and told myself “aight I’m gonna go on the floor and off my bed” so I did then a minute later I “peed” but felt good.

I stood up to just see the mess and I’m so embarrassed LMFAO I peed on my rug??? But I smelled the liquid and I couldn’t smell anything like urine..

Right now I’m thinking- maybe I didn’t want to release it during sex because I didn’t want to wet my bed??? Cause who wants to wet their bed!?

I’m just really confused because the feeling I’m feeling right now or during the “squirting” isn’t the same as my clitoral orgasm. Can anyone please help me?