So my husband and I went for the 20 week scan today. Thankfully everything looks great and there's no chase for concern regarding any health issues - which is the most you can hope for, really.

We found out our baby is a boy! I had so hoped for a girl, although I expected a boy (husband is 1 of 4 boys, he has a sister who is also about to give birth to a boy). I'm so, so deeply sad and disappointed. I've been struggling to feel relieved or excited all day since we found out and something feels empty inside me now. I didnt realise how desperately I wanted the baby to be a girl until we were told otherwise. I feel absolutely terrible that I feel this down about it :/ I've spoken to my husband about how I feel and he was hoping for a girl too, but he's been great in reassuring me that this baby will love and adore me as I do it.

I feel like a terrible person. Has anyone else felt something similar with their gender scan/tests? Does it get easier and is it normal to feel this way initially?