At dinner time today, my guy said the most disrespectful disgusting thing to me, He said something like he was getting me prepared for later in life when he whoops me. I wanted to pop the shit out of him extremely bad but my children were around and already says stuff like I'm crazy because he pushes my buttons and I'm just supposed to take his shit but when I say something, he goes and plays the victim. Some time ago he talked about marriage and I said nope I don't plan on getting married. I tell everyone that so they can shut up about it. The reason behind it and he knows is because my childhood was horrible to put it mildly. But I saw first hand how spouse change, one of my parents got married to someone else and after a night of drinking the spouse would beat up my parent it happened often and I had to hear that shit at night. I couldn't take it anymore and told my parent I was ready to live with my other parent. Sometimes I feel so helpless being in this relationship. I don't talk to my family much because they are full of drama all the time and literally don't have anyone but my kid's.