I just found out that I have a ruptured cyst on one of my ovaries and that I need to get seen by an OB as soon as possible because it could be really bad leaving me not able to have anymore kids.

I got pregnant with my first child at the age of 14 and I am not happily engaged and I feel I am ready for another baby. I have three women in my family who started developing cysts at a young age and they can’t have babies. As a woman and a mother wanting more children in the near future my heart is breaking right now. I decided to tell my fiancé what I was told this evening at the ER and his response to me was “you don’t need anymore kids anyways” and “that’s Gods way of telling you you don’t need more kids”

My son is two years old and he lives in a different state with his father and quite recently my ex BD is keeping him from me (I can barely even talk to him on the phone) so, yes it’s been hard on me considering I raised my son by myself for the first year and a half of his life and now I can barely talk to him anymore.

**And before you ask yes I am taking legal action I’m just not going to get into it on here.**

Anyways, I am over loaded with emotions/feelings and I instantly felt the depression sink in when the doctor told me the news because I had started to get my priorities straight that way when my fiancé and I were both ready we could start trying for another baby.

My fiancé has a kid of his own who is around the same age as my son and we see him all the time! I physically started preparing my body for another baby and I am currently looking for a new job so I can financially prepare as well...

The doctor at the ER suggested I stop taking birth control for the time being because that may have been what caused the cyst to appear and rupture. In the past year I have tried every form of birth control from the IUD all the way down to the pill (which I am on now and will no longer be taking) and nothing seems to work for my body, other than the whole preventing me from ovulating and causing unwanted hormones to flow throughout my body. I told my fiancé that I’m not taking birth control anymore because of everything I’ve said above and he wasn’t too happy with that, because he doesn’t want kids right now, which I feel he can wear a condom if that’s the case because I’m tired of the hassle of birth control and the continuous complications I’ve been having for the past year.

IF IT HAPPENS IT HAPPENS AND WE GO FROM THERE. Am I wrong for feeling this way?