Y’all y’all yalllllllll... girls unite because I need help lmao

Here’s a little backstory if you’re down to read.

I met this guy back in 2020 he was AMAZING. The only downfall was, in my opinion, he smoked HELLA weed. I have not ONE issue with it but I just think ahead a lot especially my future and idk if I want someone who smokes constantly around our future kids... maybe I should’ve just let that go buttt yallllll I messed up a few things towards the end and he called it quits and now I’m missing him like CRAZZYYYY. It’s been about 3-4 months since we’ve stopped talking and I can’t help but to think about texting him and apologize for everything and tell him that I’ve missed him 😩😩😩😩 like yallllll the DICK is BOMB lmao but ugh, I miss HIM. I miss just being around him and idk if I should tell him how I feel or just let it go and keep on swimming 😭😭😭😭 any advice would be greatly appreciated, ANYTHING tbh 😂