Ugh AF playing with my emotions!!

Long story short I want a baby with my husband so bad unfortunately we found out a couple years ago that with his sperm count it’s basically impossible for us to conceive. I keep trying to let go of hope but, this month I got so many “signs/feelings” I kept trying to dismiss but now here I am 3 days late even though I have my usual sore breasts and extreme bloating this time. I don’t want the heartache of the stick. I know I’m not pregnant wish I could let go of the “what if”

And imma be so mad if af waits just to ruin my Valentines plans 😂