I’m almost 18 and I’ve never even held someone’s hand before. The past two years have been so hard, I’ve lost a lot of people who I thought were my friends, my senior year got f*cked up, my parent’s dysfunction got worse, I started cutting again after several years of sobriety, my grades are shit, my meds don’t do shit for me, and I’m a Virgin. I never did anything my whole life and now my childhood is over. I just feel defeated before the race has even begun. At night I often wish I had someone there with me, even if it wasn’t sexual but just to hold me and rub my back, or run their fingers through my hair. I don’t know why I’m posting this I just need this out of my head, any response is appreciated have a good day you guys