I’m just gonna get straight to it. This isn’t a foggy memory, this is something I have remembered clearly since the time it happened but I just haven’t told anyone due to fear. I’m currently 20 years old.

When I was 7 years old, my parents both went to work one day. We lived in an apartment building at the time and my uncle (my moms uncle) lived right next door in the next unit. So my mom had his daughter, our cousin, watch my twin brother and I, she was about 13-14. So usually when she’d come to watch us, her siblings (our other cousins) would come over to. Her sister was a year older than me and my bro, her brothers were 7, 16, and 17. Long story short, my cousin that was supposed to be watching us went back next door to their apartment for a bit for some reason, my brother and my 16 year old and 7 year old cousins were playing video games in the room and my other 8 year old cousin was asleep. My 17 year old cousin was sitting in a chair in the living room and he called me over and sat me on his lap. He started complimenting me and then he told me to give him a kiss. He was family and as a little 7 year old girl, I thought nothing of it so I gave him a kiss on the CHEEK ofc but in my mind that is what he was referring to. He proceeded to actually kiss me on the lips and I was weirded out so I was gonna get up until he whispered in my ear “do you want to have sex”...At 7, I was not aware what sex was and before I could even respond he pulled his penis out and proceeded to guide me into giving him a handjob. Now as a 7 year old I was completely weirded and I didn’t exactly know what it was but I knew it was wrong. He didn’t have me do it until he finished or anything thank god but I told him I had to use the bathroom and when I got there, I stayed in there for a while creeped out and thankfully when I came out my cousin was back and soon after my parents arrived too. He has never tried anything like that with me again since that day but I have yet to ever tell anyone about it and I’d be lying if I said it didn’t haunt me