So back in November 2020 I got pregnant it was that month we decided we were just going to wait again to try again well I ended up pregnant after not trying or tracking at all. Well December I started bleeding i was about 5w and 5days so just about 6 weeks when I started having signs of miscarriage. So after talking to the doctor and having my blood drawn a week after bleeding was slowing down to confirm I passed everything. I felt fine during the process I felt okay but wanted it to be over then I started feeling horrible I guess as my hormones were going down. Well January came around and I had my period it was a little worse than normal and I was mostly okay. But this month February I just started this morning my period but the cramps feel like they did when I had the miscarriage I don’t know if I’m experiencing PTSD Or what but these 2 months have been horrible I can’t stop thinking about dying I stay awake till almost 3 or 4 every night and then want to sleep till 11-12. I have 2 living children and they’re doing great my husband has been great with them for me but he just doesn’t understand how I feel. I don’t even really know how t describe it. It’s horrible feeling and it not like a I want to sit and cry feeling it’s just a horrible feeling. I’m at a loss and I just don’t know what to do anymore. 😭😭 sorry if it all seems a bit jumbled but I just want to know if it gets better.