Okay, so hubby and I were both on board to be TTC when I went off birth control in December. I had been on prenatal’s since July but wanted to load up before going off birth control. We have always used the withdrawal method in addition too but have also had some close calls in the past. My husband kept saying he wanted to finish inside but I just kept wimping out after I stopped birth control. Well my period came and went about two weeks ago and last night was the first time I actually let him finish inside me, it was kind of un planned but I let him do it and immediately started shaking and bawling. I have never been with anyone besides my husband so this was a first for me. I couldn’t tell if it was excitement or fear or a mix of both. My hubby was supportive but after I showered we had a long talk about how he felt he was ready before but now that the task is done he isn’t sure he is......

Am I crazy that I am feeling this way after the first attempt at conception? I just started ovulation tracking but since I have only had one period without birth control I don’t think the app is accurate enough to know if I was ovulating or even if I am reading my tests accurately. Has anyone else struggled emotionally or mentally like this? We were so sure and now we don’t know what we feel.