Well this weekend started bitter... my boyfriend has to work almost every Saturday and I’m okay with that, we need money so I understand. But now he doesn’t has to work and I had good hopes for this weekend. Yesterday there was a gathering outside (there was ice and a neighbor put on disco lights) so he really wanted to go. I wasn’t in the mood because two young boys and one of them still needs me for the feeding. So my boyfriend went and I just watched some telly. But soon I was bored and just went to bed. But he came home and wanted to watch a movie together. But I was also doubting to go back. I said that he could go, because I was planning to sleep anyway. He had plans for today (Saturday) so I assumed he would be back at a normal time. Especially because our son wakes up at 5. So I saw every hour in the night, no message nothing and then my son wakes up at 5 and I hear the door. I went berserk.... now he is sleeping and I feel like shit (sorry for my language)

Am I in the wrong? Because off course he can go out and have fun... only is it a big thing to ask a message or that he comes to say I have fun so I will stay a bit longer? (He was at our neighbors)

I had to vent for a moment, feeling lonely and a bit unwanted these days.... so thanks for reading