Hi ladies, This is a sensitive subject to me, but it’s been a little over 4 years since I lost my first and only pregnancy. 4 years of tears, 4 years of thinking I’m not good enough, 4 years of of praying for it to happen just for it to not. It’s almost like I don’t even want to try anymore because every month ends up being a failure. All I want to do is be able to have my own baby and I feel like I’m not even a woman because I can’t even do that. I swear I have ptsd from it, the depression and anxiety have climbed so much since February 2017 when the doctors told me they couldn’t find a heart beat. When everyone started saying, “your young! You’ve got time!” Or “it’ll happen when it’s time.” Well when is my time? How long do I have to live in tears?😭 it’s makes me so sad to picture I would have had an almost 4 year old this year.... I feel so broke and empty.💔